Playlist/Bingo: Live a Lie

When was the last time someone asked me what my name really was? Hell, when was the last time I gave an honest answer?

This is a bad, bad idea. It was stupid enough going to Liev, but going home with him? Fuck, I must be nuts. I should leave before they wake up, but I know I won’t. I’m just too fucking tired, and no matter how much it hurts, I need to do this.

Maybe I’m getting old, or maybe the numbness is wearing thin. If I don’t stick it out, then nothing changes, and I’ll hate myself if the fucker walks because I got scared. I’ve toughed out worse and I will again. I can do this, and pay things back, just a little. Tip karma closer to my favour, and man could I use some favour now. If I get out of with this identity intact, that’s just a bonus.

If it all falls apart, well, it won’t be the first time for that either. I’ll push on. Even if I can already feel weight settling my feet too deep to run.



by | Aug 8, 2013